Mental past destruction: Blacked out memories

It’s 4 am in the morning as I start writing this. I haven’t slept yet. For the past few hours I was trying hard to get into a very old Gmail account of mine – way back from 2011 or so. And then another one related to it from those times. And then another one…

Mamba Out: Kobe Dead

There’s some part in me that dies every time someone I look up to die. It happened once again with the recent death of Kobe Bryant and his daughter along with a few others on a helicopter crash. It just puts it to my face that life is short, and we are all lost in…

Done with 25 yrs of life, here’s to the next 25

So I just turned 25 recently, and I am kicked and energetic to be in the present and walk forward here on. I’ve shed quite a lot of things, and I wish to align all my various goals towards a single focus. I’ve set myself enough goals and plans so far, the problem lies in…

Anime in my life

I turned 25 today, and I wanted to take out time to write and share with you about something very important in my life: Anime Although I don’t watch much of it right now, growing up, it was wonderful old anime that taught me so many things, right since school days. I learnt a variety…

Towards A Richer Inner Life

I’m slowly gaining more consciousness of my inner life: living with my own thoughts, emotions and energies. It’s really wonderful how much one’s silence can put someone to bliss. Although I’m writing this only now, but I’ve been sensing it for a few months now. When I turn my attention to my inner self, and…

My Self Fulfilling Prophecy

2020’s here. And I’m in a powerful phase right now. Wait, it doesn’t mean I’m doing great just yet.

Delusional or Misunderstood

I’m reaching a state in my life where on a regular basis I find myself in different confrontations with some people, that take a lot of toll on me later on and definitely a bit on them as well, emotionally and mentally. It appears to the other person that I like arguments and constant debate,…

International Men’s Day 2018

As men, we strive to be the best sons, brothers, fathers, husbands, making our sacrifices and finding ways to contribute our best to our families and society.   As men, we seek significance, achievement and glory, but find ourselves falling into the traps of lust, anger, greed, pride, attachment and jealousy; and lose ourselves time…

Dear Diary 03.May.2018 – Proud of My Past Struggles

I remember faintly those days back when I was in depression and the first thing that I wrote about in this blog was the same thing – depression. The reason I’m writing this down is because I am helping a few acquaintances with the same illness that I had been through about 2 years ago….

Dear Diary 08.Sep.2017

I write today as I witness my younger brother on medication for a set of psychological problems, and it suddenly reminded me of my own time back in the shit-pit of depression. I remember faintly how I was in pain for a multitude of reasons, be it my then girlfriend, my exams, my relationships with…

Dear Diary 17.Aug.2017

Dear Diary It’s been one of the longest times since I wrote. I’m doing good, slowly building my life up with a fruitful career, driving my dad’s 15 year old bike 30 km to office, and coming 30 km back all the way to home. Life has gotten a bit monotonous, and I seem to…

Childhood Abuse – My Story

I don’t know how to put it, where to start or why I’m writing all this. Looking back, if I quit all the fast paced life for a minute and see, I faced a lot of abuse from my father in my childhood. Not just me, my younger brother as well. I faced severe belting…